tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21361221390101678932024-03-13T06:26:04.870-07:00Krazee Frog, le blog!I'm Vic (39), married to a Frog (47) and we're parents to three gorgeous girls (15, 13 & 2.5)!
Our youngest is an IVF miracle, after 9 years and 4 months TTC following various tests/treatments/medications and losses.
We're now trying for one more blessing (my absolute dream has always been 4 children).
I started this blog as a journal while TTC#4....in time I will back date the blog to include the journey to our 3rd blessing xKrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.comBlogger90125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-21210722396634525172019-04-12T05:13:00.002-07:002019-04-12T05:13:47.416-07:00The mystery of the disappearing polyp....<span style="text-align: center;">Yesterday was polyp eviction day. The polyp that was discovered by hysteroscopy in October last year.</span><br />
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<span style="text-align: center;">The hospital only do polypectomies under general anesthetic, so I was knocked out for it (love a good GA sleep!).</span><br />
<span style="text-align: center;">I waited in my room for a few hours to be discharged - Dr must have been busy. She finally comes round and tells me she has good and bad news.....good news was no polyp (what?!), bad news was going through the waiting for surgery and having a GA for no reason - this is fine, I'd rather have the peace of mind knowing a Dr I trust has given me the once over, and we're in good shape for the FET!</span><br />
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<span style="text-align: center;">I really don't know what happened to it though, where did it go, she says they don't just disappear, and she doesn't think the change in progesterone from fertility clinic would have gotten rid of it.... Could it be mum, having a little word with God? She was here visiting when the polyp was diagnosed, she passed just a few weeks later, she knew we want another child....</span>KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-30649279008113213502019-03-26T12:44:00.000-07:002019-03-26T12:44:02.541-07:00'On this day'.<div style="text-align: center;">
This time last year I started getting a second line on a test, I was over the moon at the thought we would be blessed with a 4th child.</div>
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Instead, our beta test came back at just 13 and we had a chemical pregnancy/early miscarriage.</div>
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Today we've had a consultation at our local hospital, with the Dr who cared for us through my pregnancy with daughter #3, our IVF miracle. </div>
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She's lifted our spirits and has booked me in for a polypectomy, yay! </div>
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She couldn't understand why the fertility clinic haven't removed it already given our history of infertility and losses!</div>
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So the ball rolls once again, and positivity is returning. </div>
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Time to start planning the FET of our little 4AB blasto ❤️</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-30042064036418457112019-01-24T03:19:00.001-08:002019-01-24T03:19:05.712-08:00Update.<div style="text-align: center;">
Apologise for going off radar.<br />
My mum passed on the 22nd November, 5 weeks and 1 day after she'd been given 2-3m to live.<br />She came for a short visit and returned to the UK early November, moving into the bungalow they'd (mum and dad) just bought on 9th Nov. We're all heartbroken that her time was cut so short, the end came so fast. I think she just gave up once she had visited and said her goodbyes. <br />I will never forget those last few days she spent here, we all had so much optimism that the CBD oil was going to give her much more time - she seemed really well to say she'd been diagnosed as critically terminal, she even told our daughters that she would be back for Easter.<br />I thought I was ready to blog again, but it's too upsetting writing it all down.<br />I will be back soon, there's not much to update on the ttc/IVF front though....</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-39062521184360564282018-11-15T01:04:00.002-08:002018-11-15T01:04:50.402-08:00Angry!<div style="text-align: center;">
On Monday hubby phoned clinic to ask if they had thought about my email yet (I emailed at the start of November to ask about polyp and adhesion removal)....our new consultant that supports me breastfeeding through IVF has left!!!! Clinic said they would discuss and get back to us. Hubby phoned again Wednesday morning, they will discuss and get back to us, and NO reply yet!<br />If we didn't have a frozen embryo I'd tell them to shove their cycles (I feel our old consultant now has the upper hand and is going to treat us like crap), but we have a possible life waiting to be defrosted and loved....</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-37812361493444960442018-11-05T01:26:00.001-08:002018-11-05T01:29:07.439-08:00The hysteroscopy.<div style="text-align: center;">
I had my 'disgnostic' hysteroscopy last week.<br />
It was very quick, one polyp and nothing else - I knew they're not used for endo/adeno diagnosis, but I had hoped as it was our consultants suggestion for the test, he's have more of a prod about and ask more questions about my symptoms....<br />
He says we can go ahead on my next cycle with our 5 day FET!<br />
No!<br />
The chance of mc is increased slightly with a polyp, given my history and mum being so ill, I'm not putting our girls through what could potentially be even more heartache!<br />
I'm asking for polyp removal and also to remove my adhesions, cause there's something that's causing almost constant pain!<br />
So, more waiting....<br /><br />Mum and dad visited for a few days whilst mum was able, she's had all treatment stopped with the exception of steroids which are keeping the brain tumours at bay, for now. She's taking CBD oil in the hope that a miracle might happen.<br />Was nice to have them here again, goodbye was difficult, I don't know if my passport will come through in time to see her again?</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-56510813975635526542018-10-17T08:29:00.003-07:002018-10-17T08:29:48.514-07:00Times up :(<div style="text-align: center;">
I wont get to give mum a final grandchild.<br />We've had the news today that after the cancer spreading to her brain it can not be stopped, she has 2-3 months left with us....<br />Frantically booking car hire, ferry and trying to renew my passport :(</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-50377507069814725562018-10-15T03:14:00.002-07:002018-10-15T03:14:32.871-07:00Why?<div style="text-align: center;">
Why can't I wish you back, to come and live with me</div>
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We longed for you so much, to join our family.</div>
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I remember when the results came though, to say you were almost gone</div>
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I shrieked and yelled, sobbed endless tears, my world instantly became numb.</div>
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Our hearts are broken that you're gone, you had no time with us</div>
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I hope you can look down to earth, and feel us sending love.<br /><br />X</div>
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<br />KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-51049299067066311092018-10-11T01:08:00.001-07:002018-10-11T01:08:34.771-07:00Struggling.<div style="text-align: center;">
I feel so empty at the moment.<br />It's baby loss awareness week.<br />I should be 32w tomorrow if my body could have protected our little IVF#6 bean.<br />I've gone quite with the groups online, I don't want to talk about how I'm doing at the mo, I don't want to bring anyone down.<br />10dpo (I think) and of course it's bfn, why would it be anything else?</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-34448366793466231492018-10-02T09:14:00.002-07:002018-10-02T09:15:08.937-07:00Pulling my head out from the sand!<div style="text-align: center;">
I've been trying my best to ignore the worsening symptoms of endometriosis and possible adenomyosis but our new consultant phoned this morning (never, ever did our other consultant call to check on us!) to double check when I'm going in for a hysteroscopy.<br />
We had planned that if the first FET didn't work, I'd book in for this, give my uterus a general check over and see if my endo was back, then crack on with FET#2. I'm pretty sure without a doubt the endo is back, so burying my head in the sand and hoping that just 'getting on with it' would bring us another miracle was my way of dealing with it....<br />
....the consultant doesn't want us to waste an embryo, or go through the heartache of yet another failure that might have been avoided.<br />
So at the end of this month I'm booked in for the check, he's not ruling out adenomyosis too due to the severity of my symptoms and pain. This is my fear, the only cure is a hysterectomy, I'm not ready for that yet and I feel very selfish about it.<br />
I feel selfish cause I want it all behind me, I want to be able to be pain free, I'm tired of being stuck in the house cause my period is so heavy and clotty, I'm worried about cancer too, my nan had uterine cancer, my mum had a hysterectomy for endo mid 30s so it's not possible to know if she would have been susceptible to it, and my sister is currently being checked for some sort of cancer (bladder, bowel or uterine), the combination of endo/adeno and estrogen dominance are all markers that raise the chances of uterine cancer. However I'm desperate for one more child, and only having another child will stop my desperation (what if I have a hysterectomy and can't cope with not having completed our family). So sticking my head in the sand and ignoring it all has been the easiest option.</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-27623062629071680282018-09-21T07:30:00.002-07:002018-09-21T07:30:56.459-07:00DIY cycle and endo diet.<div style="text-align: center;">
I've given this cycle lots of though and I'm going to go ahead with a light stim cycle, I have a small amount of medication left over so can't see any harm in it....I have one wonky fallopian tube and diminished ovarian reserve, so it's not like there's going to be lots of eggs getting fertilised then sticking around in my dodgy endometriosis filled uterus!<br />I was going to post about doing a DIY cycle on the forum I use, but self medding is frowned upon so thought best to stick to here where I'm just talking to myself.<br /><br />I'm also going to try and stick to an diet that is anti-inflammatory, from what I've read this should help with the endometriosis.<br />Food like tomatoes, beetroot, kale and spinach should help, along with cutting out caffeine, complex carbs etc.<br /><br />If this DIY cycle and the next FET cycle don't work, I'm going to have a think about seeing my endocrinologist - thyroid medication changed how it was made last year, my mother-in-law has had to change back to the old medication as she was really tired after it changed despite her TSH and other factors not changing, so I'm wondering if this may be impacting implantation? </div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-68450865486280869542018-09-20T02:07:00.001-07:002018-09-20T02:07:45.239-07:00OTD - official test day, FET#1<div style="text-align: center;">
I don't need to wait for the results to come through, af is here.<br />So, OTD and also CD1 :(<br />I have a small amount of meds left, so I might do a very small stim cycle, it's highly unlikely to work though as I need high dose meds to get any follicles on my left....I don't have a tube on my right....</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-48925948539340680482018-09-19T04:05:00.001-07:002018-09-19T04:05:13.153-07:00BFN from FET#1<div style="text-align: center;">
Tomorrow is beta day, but I've started spotting.<br />All urine tests 100% negative.</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-45481305898185086122018-09-14T00:22:00.002-07:002018-09-14T00:24:57.576-07:00False positives with breast milk, a lesson well learnt :(<div style="text-align: center;">
You'd be forgiven for thinking this was an exciting result (from my breast milk), after all it's ONLY hcg that can trigger the pink test line, and there is a whopping great big line right there....<br />
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Well, it's either cause my milk was holding onto the trigger shot for longer, or the antibiotics I was on added with the natural antibodies in my milk caused some sort of reaction.<br />
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As I've posted this across forums and FB groups, other ladies have joined in, their tests seem to be accurately reading if they have hcg or not, so why not mine?<br />
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I am heartbroken that yet another cycle has failed. Am I being too greedy wanting to complete our family with one more child? Is it really too much to ask?<br />
My urine tests are whiter than a Daz advert, they're as blindingly bright as the sun on crisp snow :(</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-13917656107704547102018-09-11T02:29:00.000-07:002018-09-11T02:29:00.156-07:00FET#1, the madness begins - breast milk hpt!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
It's quite insane but it stops me obsessing - I'm 5dp3dFET....I've just bought 100 cheapie strip tests, so no harm in wasting a few;<br /><br /><br /><a href="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-laXtSeiqPkQ/W5eKNat-rqI/AAAAAAAAACo/Ds3DzcjEAlEIBYQ1mYvYiWK21Wb64iklwCLcBGAs/s1600/IMG_20180911_102150.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="946" data-original-width="1600" height="189" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-laXtSeiqPkQ/W5eKNat-rqI/AAAAAAAAACo/Ds3DzcjEAlEIBYQ1mYvYiWK21Wb64iklwCLcBGAs/s320/IMG_20180911_102150.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
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KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-51663165873756317452018-09-10T03:32:00.002-07:002018-09-10T03:32:37.184-07:004dp3dFET<div style="text-align: center;">
Nausea!<br />What?!<br />Not possible, yet?<br />Ahhhh!</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-41073841093713647252018-09-07T09:15:00.001-07:002018-09-07T09:18:19.793-07:00PUPO with our frostie!<div style="text-align: center;">
What a day!<br />
I started off with the school run, it's quick this year as both our older girls now take buses, so it was a quick drop of at the stop for DD2, back home to give LO brekkie and get her travel bag ready, then to my parents house to empty all the last bits (they were selling and the completion was yesterday afternoon - they're now living in the UK full time so everything was down to me). I could barely fit in my car on the drive to the mother-in-laws to drop LO off, there was that much last minute junk in my car lol!<br />
So hubby was waiting at mils for me (he was working in the morning), he phoned clinic do double check on the thaw and we were good to go.<br />
Arrived at clinic at about 11.30, receptionist automatically told us to wait 5 mins, looked up over her glasses and realised it was us (we're practically on first names terms with everyone lol) and sent us down the corridor to wait for the embryologist.<br />
Embryologist was happy with the thaw, the embie remained the same grade it was frozen at, yay!<br />
Went and got myself comfy in the ET room, waited a few minutes for the consultant and who walks in?....the Dr that gave me a bollocking for continuing to BF through IVF, telling me I was putting LO at risk....however, she's head of department so I had a sense of ease as at least she's got experience on her side, and we needed it!<br />
Scan starts so they can get the catheter in....my uterus is filled with fluid! She takes a syringe and drains in via the catheter, and I have to wait to see if it stays clear - I also have to drink more, top tip, do not drink more until you're 2 mins away from transfer as I was ready to streak through the corridor in just my blouse I was THAT bursting to pee!<br />
45/50 mins later and after ordering hubby to find someone before I wet myself, she comes back. Everyone has gone for lunch (it's 1pm by now) so hubby gets to play Dr and hold the scanner lol!<br />
Everything is all clear and transfer went ahead, I only managed a few minutes before making a mad dash (barefoot) down the corridor to the toilet lol!<br /><br />The Dr was REALLY nice with us, really calm, crossing her fingers and complimenting me on my painted toe nails - a huge change from the last time we had her and she was being horrible....I wonder if our new Dr had a word to explain I was not putting LO at risk, at all?!<br />
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All was left for the day was to sign over my parents house to the new owners, I had been stressing about this but it was a nice appointment, the solicitor was funny and the people were really excited!</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-34642507216489612432018-09-03T03:44:00.000-07:002018-09-03T03:44:11.759-07:00FET#1 trigger!<div style="text-align: center;">
Friday was my second scan, my lead follicle was 19.5mm and my lining was 13mm. The consultant was pleased with this - I was secretly hoping the lead follicle would be on my left then we could also try naturally as I feel quite negative about the FET working....<br />They phoned and told me to trigger on the Saturday, meaning 'ovulation' would be today.<br />I had a +ive ovulation test on Saturday and I'm quite sure I ovulated yesterday, so this is going to put me a day out with the FET if so! <br />I really wanted to trigger on Sunday, to avoid transfer on Thursday as I'm signing the sale of my parents house to a very fussy couple and I didn't want that stress, but clinic said to trigger Saturday or cancel!<br />I'm still spotting too, they've not listened to my concern over natural early ovulation, I feel I should have had some down regs alongside menopur, like I would do on a fresh cycle. So all in all I'm feeling this is a waste of time, however, it is a learning curve for us, being our first FET.</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-41242263583686468372018-08-25T07:29:00.000-07:002018-08-25T07:29:00.417-07:00FET#1 has begun!<div style="text-align: center;">
I've been so busy with it being the summer holidays that I keep forgetting to update the blog, sorry!<br /><br />A couple of weeks ago we had our booking in for FET#1, we're delighted to have changed Dr, as the new guy 100% supports my choice to continue breastfeeding, what a relief!<br /><br />I'm CD2, and we're planning on doing the 3 day (911) embryo first, so if it doesn't thaw then we can try the 5 day blasto (4AB). If the day 3 falls on a Sunday then we'll have to do the day 5 instead.<br />We're hoping to avoid a Friday for transfer as that's when the miserable cow Dr who gave me a bollocking (whilst coming round from GA of IVF7) for breastfeeding during IVF is on duty....!<br />Our new Dr had a bit of a twinkle in his eye when we explained how she spoke to me, he says he totally understands, so we presume her bedside manner may have gotten her a few complaints! He's even given me his email address (at the hosp, not personal lol) so I can send him the most recent info on IVF whilst BF, yay!<br />So I'll be doing a very lightly medicated cycle, just 50 of menopur instead of 450, then ovitrelle to trigger once my lining looks good and the usual progesterone in the 2ww - and beyond we hope....<br />First scan and bloods is on Monday, then I think they're going to let me know if I'll need any down regs to stop the possibility of early ovulation.</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-68687030370078795432018-07-30T01:35:00.001-07:002018-07-30T01:35:10.776-07:00Negativity!<div style="text-align: center;">
I'm so down and negative at the moment, really wish someone would give me a good shake!<br />I don't know why, I guess my hormones are still settling down?<br />I know I'm bound to be upset after the cycle failed, but I don't feel it's that....I haven't actually cried since getting the official bfn, I cried a lot in the days leading up to it, lots of sobbing, but once it was confirmed I guess I've just been a bit numb.<br />I don't understand why it wouldn't have worked with such a good quality embryo - IVF6 the embryo was starting to fragment, which isn't good, and it still started to implant, whereas this cycle the embryo was perfect, so the problem must be me....<br />I've been googling endometriosis and IVF, it seems if I get it removed again, there then needs to be a minimum wait of 7 months before a FET. There isn't time, I'm on the road to 40!</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-38868250915853009162018-07-24T08:01:00.001-07:002018-07-24T08:01:04.387-07:00IVF7 Test Day!<div style="text-align: center;">
BFN.<br />No surprise there after testing everyday for the past week.<br /><br />FET planned for September, yay!<br />Changed to my favourite consultant, appointment in 3 weeks, double yay!</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-40927049755359945492018-07-19T02:15:00.004-07:002018-07-19T02:15:54.579-07:00FRER and excited anticipation!<div style="text-align: center;">
There's so much excitement that comes with using FRER (first response early result) for testing, it's as if peeing on one of these wonder sticks, that can detect pregnancy hormones 6 days before your period is due, means you're more likely to get a positive result.<br />Why oh why do I let myself believe it?!<br />On Monday (3dp3dt) I tested out trigger, my tests were negative, meaning any lines from then on were from our embryo implanting and not from the IVF medication.<br />Yesterday (5dp3dt) I had what I felt was a slight hint of a line on a cheap strip test, so I thought I'd give one of my precious FRER a try (I only had 3 for this cycle, and being in France I have to order online, so they take about a week to get here....).<br />There seemed to be a line, which was a bit of a shock as I was technically only 8dpo.<br /><img alt="saWuYeHnuSZ5Hgcm4RcvGVdvIql0pkv2_lg.jpg" height="300" src="https://imageserve.babycenter.com/19/000/425/saWuYeHnuSZ5Hgcm4RcvGVdvIql0pkv2_lg.jpg" width="400" /><br /><br />So, I did another cheap test at 2pm....maybe a line?<br /><img alt="LC9kX8K0tB2SGtevFyR6BwDoh5GzLIs6_lg.jpg" height="262" src="https://imageserve.babycenter.com/21/000/425/LC9kX8K0tB2SGtevFyR6BwDoh5GzLIs6_lg.jpg" width="400" /><br /><br />I went back to the FRER after 7.5 hours, the colour seemed easier to photo by now - either due to drying, or cause I'd charged my phone lol!<br /><img alt="2WQFgaPIJ4rPVjb8nZwQpGYelBeSVPUa_lg.jpg" height="244" src="https://imageserve.babycenter.com/26/000/425/2WQFgaPIJ4rPVjb8nZwQpGYelBeSVPUa_lg.jpg" width="400" /><br /><br /><br />Today (6dp3dt) there's nothing, not even the sniff of an evap!<br /><br />Moral of the story, no matter what the test, it's not the test that creates that bfp, it's you!<br /><br />I'm gutted, I actually feel like this cycle has failed, I have this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach (have had it since yesterday) and I want to curl up into a ball and cry....</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-30582361904702840752018-07-17T02:41:00.000-07:002018-07-17T02:41:20.545-07:00Embryo update/shock!<div style="text-align: center;">
So Sunday was day 5 for our embryos, but clinic is closed on Sunday so we obviously had no update....Monday came and hubby couldn't get through as the phone was being funny....I thought this would have meant none of the 4 remaining embryos would have made it to blast/freeze, as they hadn't tried to contact us....<br />Hubby phoned them today, we had a blasto frozen on Sunday, I can't believe it! <br />So 1x day three frostie and 1x blasto frostie, I am in total shock!<br />How have we gone through so many cycles (our first IVF was January 2011) with not even a hope of blasto, let alone one good enough to freeze, and now at 39 & 46 we've had our best cycle to date?! Obviously we're still in the 2ww, so don't know if this cycle has worked yet....but if the best of day 3 was transferred to me, my PMA is on the rise!<br /></div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-41481390837639012482018-07-13T18:30:00.000-07:002018-07-14T09:31:17.449-07:00Day 3 transfer.<div style="text-align: center;">
I can not put it into words how delightedly happy I am!<br /><br />We've had a day three (top quality) single embryo transfer....AND one (top quality) went into the deep freeze too! We have never, ever had a frostie before!<br /><br />The clinic are even taking the other four (yes there's FOUR more - explain in a min) embryos to see if they'll make day 5 or 6, I am in shock!<br /><br />When we chatted with the embryologist, he explained that 5 of the 6 eggs were mature and had been fertilised....then once the 6th egg was matured it was fertilised too, so there's 4 more in the running ( a total of 6 embryos, 100% fert rate) - not that I'm expecting any of the others to make it to the freezer....but still, having one in there is pretty amazing!</div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-91559186062663973722018-07-11T05:51:00.003-07:002018-07-11T05:51:26.564-07:00IVF7, EC :)<div style="text-align: center;">
So, the morning went well, the staff on the gyne day ward are lovely and recognise me now from our previous cycles, so we have quite a bit of banter which is relaxing :)<br />The EC was good, they weren't able to get to all my follicles, and what they did manage to get from one side was down to someone in theatre practically sitting on me, lol!<br />So, from 7 follicles (and possible extra smaller ones), we got SIX eggs!<br />This morning we had the cal (which was quite a bit earlier than usual) to say that 5 have fertilised!<br />Really happy!<br />ET is on Friday, woohoo, almost PUPO!<br /><br /><img alt="No automatic alt text available." src="https://scontent-cdt1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/12187904_10153219990663807_4973647552261907586_n.jpg?_nc_cat=0&oh=346c0c3d4125d48d439ee88beef35ea5&oe=5BD6C80B" /><br /><br />I'll talk about the afternoon of EC day in another post soon - a complaint will be made towards my consultant!<br /><br /><br /></div>
KrazeeFroghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07145735288131681232noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2136122139010167893.post-21830711111637065982018-07-09T08:58:00.003-07:002018-07-09T08:58:50.865-07:00EC tomorrow!<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: #fdfdfd; color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; text-align: start;">Well I'm into the stage I find quite nervy, trigger last night, there's nothing else I can do to increase numbers now apart from eat more rancid tofu to keep my protein up....</span><br style="background-color: #fdfdfd; box-sizing: inherit; color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; text-align: start;" /><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd; color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; text-align: start;">Nice dose of anal laxative gel tonight (normal part of protocol in France - and my endo sometimes makes me constipated so it's nice to have a clear out 😂 ) and an anti thrush capsule up my foofer, then a betadine scrub shower - hair too, so I'll have an orange 'Trump' like glow 🤔</span><br style="background-color: #fdfdfd; box-sizing: inherit; color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; text-align: start;" /><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd; color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; text-align: start;">Last EC they cut into the wall of my foofer, so that was a surprise to feel some stitches up there when doing my progesterone lol! <br />Will inform them tomorrow that once again they can be as rough as needed (general anaesthetic - difficult collections but never any after pain) as long as they harvest lots of eggs!<br /><br />Early rise in the morning, it's 100km from our house to clinic, but we have to drop LO off with the mother-in-law, she's a 20 minute drive away in the wrong flippin direction, so I think we're up at 4!!!!<br />As I have a general (due to adhesions and difficult collections), I'm first down, so have to be at hosp at 7.30.<br /><br />Praying we have good numbers tomorrow and this is the final time I'll need to go through this....</span></div>
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