Pre EC wobble :(

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So, on Saturday morning my follies were measuring between 17 - 23.5mm, so EC is tomorrow.  HCG trigger was done last night and now I'm just a bag of nerves, I guess cause there is nothing else I can do now....

Also, our DDs are ill, full of colds, DD1 has been throwing up and DD2 has had the runs, so I'm full of a chesty cold too, really worried this is going to effect EC, it's clinic policy to do a general anesthetic for EC (although I could have demanded a local, but one of my ovaries is hard to get at, so guess a general is best for the pain).  I've been feeling soooooo sick too, I just feel they're going to say I'm not well enough for EC, what happens then?  I'm already dreading the next cycle (cause have quite a strong feeling this isn't going to work), the injections have been fine, but I've had horrid side effects and have been so tired and emotional, argh!  Not sure if I'll be doing round 2....

I take my hat off to the ladies who go through this more than once, knowing what they're letting themselves in for, what strong women they are!  

Sorry to be so negative, just needed to get it all out before I explode.  Feel free to give me a good slap to snap me out of it, lol!

To top it off, where I live they're very precautious, and I have to have a blumming enema tonight, it's going to act as a laxative, so the dr tomorrow doesn't have to bother about my bowels/being in the way, rargh!  I used to binge on laxatives (had an eating disorder), so I'm really not liking the idea of that :(  I just hope I don't poop myself during the 1.5hr drive in the morning....?!

Really hope my positivity comes back asap!

Phew!

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Well, that's it, trigger shot is done, there is nothing else I have to do now except wait until egg collection on Tuesday.

I was crapping myself about the HCG trigger, but it was by far the easiest of injections to do - even though I did it myself, in my own ass, lol!  I will never think of the phrase *needle in a hay stack* the same way again, from now on it's *needle in an ass crack* pmsl!  

I was worried I couldn't bend round enough to do it, but I sort of did it in my side ass iygwim (it's big enough lol)!

I was also worrying about mixing it correctly, as it said on the instructions there was a vial of solution and a vial of powder, but the powder looked like cream.... but as soon as I mixed it was fine, phew!

So, I don't have to do any more injections, until next time, I'm just praying that there doesn't need to be a next time.

Now to worrying about the egg collection, I'll be given a light general anesthetic, but I'm petrified as I'm full of a cold and I think the girls have gastro, just hope it's not cancelled, and that the 8 follies produce 8 lovely eggies and we have a healthy, safe bfp/baby.

CD1, yeehaa!

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Baseline scan is on the 6th, then I'll start stimming, yay!  Down regging has been fine, and apart from the banging head that I had for the first few days I'm glad to say I've had no side effects, yippee!

Happy 2011 to everyone, hope all your dreams come true :)

Banging head from down regging, gone :)

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Yay, well, today is day 7 of down regs and it's the first day in 4 that I've not had a banging head!  I'd usually blame it on alcohol or hereditary migranes, but this was defo the DR, as I've been feeling sick with it too.  

So, my top tip to anyone feeling they might have DR headaches is to drink drink and drink - water that is, lol!  I've had about 3 litres so far today, so I'm pissing like a fish, but I'm a happy fish!

Merry Christmas one and all :)

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Wishing each and everyone of you a wonderful Christmas  and that 2011 brings all those ttc a magical bfp; those with bumps grow healthy, happy babies; and those with babies/children have a happy, love filled year.

I also hope that those who are having hard, difficult times, are surrounded by love and find the strength from others to continue with whatever journey they're on, and that their happiness is just around the corner.

Much love, Krazee xxxx

1st injection done!

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Well, I had a few tears today, went to the chemist as I hadn't got an injection pen for my meds, so went to check with our neighbour, then she pointed out it says on our prescription that the nurse will come and do them EVERY day (we're not in the UK)!  So, I got all teary as my family are coming to visit over new year and they don't know about us doing IVF, I can't exactly hide a nurse in my handbag like I can an injection pen, lol!  I felt like a right spoilt brat getting upset, doh!

So phoned the hosp and they said I can do it myself, phew, so the nurse has given me a prescription for the pen, and I'm happy again - although....it blumming hurt, and the needle was bloody mahoosive (OK, only about 1 inch but MUCH bigger than the puregon pen needle I'm used to lol!), so now I'm thinking we should have the nurse come out daily, pmsl!  Can't wait for the down regs to be over and to start stimming, cause I can manage those injections just fine!

Really glad I could start today, it's 6yrs today since fil passed away, so it's nice to think today is the start of adding another member to our family :)


23/12/10

Did it myself tonight, yay!  Our neighbour (works at the chemist) ordered the needles/syringes for me and flippin heck are they mahoosive or what!  She's given me two sizes, a small one to draw the fluid out of the little bottle and mix into the other bottle with powder, and a big needle to swap over for injecting....but I did it the other way round, as that what the nurse did, it all went in fine so pretty sure that's OK doing it that way.

Eeeeeek, IVF meds are here, ready for tomorrow!

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Wow, it's all becoming real now, our neighbour has just dropped my meds off (she works for the pharmacy) and it feels a bit strange that we are actually going to do this - it's been our hope for a long time, ever since 2008 when I asked for fertility tests but got laughed out the drs door!

All we have to do now is arrange for the nurse to pop over and show me how to inject tomorrow, then we're all set to start down regs tomorrow evening :)

I've got Decapeptyl for down regs, but I've not heard of that before - and we didn't get an injection pen with the prescription, so I guess we'll get that when the nurse comes tomorrow?  I don't even know if the boxes should go in the fridge, the puregon (for stimming) has a note on it to go in the fridge, but not the rest.  I've got the hcg box too, I'm sure as it's hormonal it should be in the fridge, but it doesn't say on the instructions either, ahhhh!

So very excited, yay!

Hope I can sleep tonight :)

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Well, af has arrived this evening (she has been very good and is 4 days early), so I am officially cd1 of our first IVF cycle, and I'm feeling excited, nervous, thrilled, worried and so, so emotional (in a good way, for once, lol!).  We're doing long protocol, so wont start down regs til 22 Dec (according to here).  If all goes to plan we should have egg collection mid January.  

Will have to ring the clinic tomorrow, as I'm all a fluster, I'm so excited I can't remember if I have a baseline scan at the start (cd2, tomorrow) or after the af I've had whilst down regging (early Jan), doh!

I feel like I should write more, but I'm so happy my mind is spinning lol!

Feel like such a heifer, lol!

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Well, I've had my family staying for a while and tomorrow they go back home, I have eaten soooooo much unhealthy junk (surprisingly haven't drunk too much alcohol lol!) I feel like such a big fat blob, bleurgh!

So, on Wednesday I'm starting a detox diet, for 10 days, then off on a girls night out (let my hair down for the last time before IVF) early Dec, then straight back onto healthy eating.  

Really hoping I haven't left healthy eating too late for our IVF cycle - EC shouldn't be til mid/end of January anyway as I'm doing LP, and also hope the detox (10 days) wont do any harm - will be taking loads of vits whilst doing it?  

Is it OK to do a detox before IVF - I'm pretty sure I wont stick to it for more than 3 days anyway lol, or to lose weight whilst DR'ing?  Say 2-3lbs?

Is anyone else trying to shed a few pounds before IVF?

I really must start doing more journals, I want to keep track of all my emotions and thoughts on this journey, and maybe they might help me stay focused, hmmmmm.

Best of luck to all the couples out there trying for that bfp, and wishing healthy bumps to all those with bfps :)

Krazee x

1st IVF cycle starts in a couple of weeks :)

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Well, as it says above, our 1st IVF cycle starts next month, whoop whoop!  I wasn't sure if they'd fit me in as the clinic is shut for 2 weeks over Christmas, but, as af is due around the 6th Dec then they can squeeze in a scan to check my ovaries around ovulation (20th Dec), then I'll start down regging straight away, I'm a sooooo excited but at the same time I'm pooping my pants lol!

So, if all goes to plan, and af isn't a party pooper I can start stimming in Jan, then EC and ET should be at the end of Jan 2011.

This is so real now, we're over the moon to finally be at this stage!

Best of luck to everyone for thier wonderful BFPs <3

Sinking in.... :o(

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Well, a week ago today I was standing holding a bfp, unable to believe it, I did another test, neither were fmu but both had the faintest of +ive lines come up straight away.

Why is it only just now sinking in, maybe cause this is the first time since then I'm able to sit on my own and cry (I try not to get upset infront of dh, as I don't want him to feel he is to blame)?  

I knew at the time when holding that bfp not to get excited (just like I've known before), maybe that's the reason why I broke down at our IVF appt on Friday, we have another appt next week, where I'll learn to inject in the morning, then in the afternoon we will see the dr to get our dates, I soooo hope I can hold it together, I'll be collecting my folks from the airport as soon as we're out from the appt....

I don't really do hugs, but could do with positive vibes, or if anyone has any words of wisdom, to help me keep it together next week?

Thanks x