CD12 follie check....

What a relief to have a check at the fertility clinic!
Had the head consultant, she scares me a little lol, but at least she's the best!
The appointment left me a little surprised - there's no trigger happening today (last cycle EC was CD12).  Instead tonight I continue with 450 menopur and the down reg and go back to clinic for another check tomorrow.
The follies today were 1x 16mm on the right, and 4-6 follicles on the left (not sure of sizes, I think 2 of them were about the same as the right side follie though?).
At a guess I'd say EC might be Thursday?  This is a slight worry, clinic don't do 2dt anymore and a 3dt would be on Sunday when they're closed.... I'm going to have to get some courage to ask about this tomorrow - luckily my IVF/medical French is quite good lol!
So today is day 11 of stimming, which is a first for us.

CD8, follie check....

Like the last follie check (on CD6) this one is again at my local hosp as the fertility clinic is a 200km round trip....they're not quite as skilled as at the fertility clinic but at least today was better!
We have 5 follicles showing up today, 2 on the right and 3 on the left. 
At this moment in time it seems that this cycle is following our November cycle with 5 follicles, praying there's chance of this number going up....

CD6, follie check....

I'm not sure if todays follie check could have been much more disappointing?!
The sonographer can't have had much experience, 2 mins with dildocam and he gave up and tried an abdominal scan....erm, with severe adhesions my ovaries are always hard to find, there's not a chance an abdo scan would spot them!  The abdo scan lasted all of about 20 seconds lol, then lovely dildocam came out again.
4 follies (2+2)!  What, where's the other 3?!
And, he was measuring them at 4-6mm, on CD2 they were 4-7mm, what's going on....

Gotta lol, auto-correct wanted to change sonographer to pornographer 😆😝

IVF#6, CD2 - baseline scan (with endo)!

You know you're doing IVF when you've got a date with dildocam whilst on your period, yuk!
Last cycle I managed to have our date on CD1, which is much better for me as it's my lightest day, but CD2+3, with endometriosis added in, it's just horrid!
Luckily it was OK, I was first there so had time to go to the loo (twice) for a clear out beforehand, then after undressing (lower half) I popped my knickers between my legs to catch anything I'd missed, then kept them in my hand whilst on the couch and slipped them back on whilst still led down (so gravity didn't get the better of me) - luckily there was nothing and I escaped the room without any messy puddles and dignity still intact!

It was a good scan!
Last cycle (November) I had 3 antral follicles, they became 5 follicles with stimming but the cycle ended with just 2 eggs (only one mature) and no transfer....
....this time I have 7 (yes, SEVEN)!  I am delighted!  Not only that, but they're all around 4-6mm too, I did a quick bit of reading (https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2800930/) and for CD2 these seem good sizes (the dr even gave me a print off with all the sizes - and I'm SURE there were a few smaller ones that he didn't count too).
I know for most people doing IVF, 7 follicles would be really disappointing, but as I've got low AMH and diminished ovarian reserve (DOR) then I'm really made up.  We also started with 7 on our successful cycle with our little IVF miracle.

Clinic phoned and I'm on max dose menopur again (450), I'm a little unsure about max dose again, it was a lower dose of 300 when it worked, however I have to remember that we're dealing with OAP eggs this time and clinic want this to work almost as much as we do - can we be a positive statistic again for them?

So my thoughts are, to stick with all the supplements I'm having - I will list them all and the dosage soon, to continue steering clear of caffeine/bread & butter, and of course.... NO alcohol!

IVF a go-go!

The decision was made to go ahead....I'm now CD21 and starting HRT patches toady, as usual I started the duphaston (progesterone) on CD16.
Being healthy is going well - always easier when it's lent as I'm always extra motivated to stick to it!
Collected all my 'drugs' from the chemist yesterday, I walked out with what was like a big green suitcase there was that much lol!
The only drama for today is that I'm not sure if I should have my HRT patch on by now or wait until this evening....hmm, why oh why don't I think of these questions before I need an immediate answer?
All being well I'll be having my baseline scan and bloods in 7-8 days, eeek!

Tomorrow?

Tomorrow is CD16, the day I should start duphaston if we decide to do IVF#6 as originally planned.... I'm not 100% sure if I have ovulated yet this cycle (and I'm not supposed to use progesterone before ovulation as it can mess up the cycle). 
As I had it in my head we were going to delay the IVF then we have bee ttc naturally, which also causes a dilemma as I need to look into the HRT patches and if they're safe when pregnant if by any chance we got lucky - cause I start them on CD22, waaaaay before I'd know if naturally it had worked. 
I was going to give another day or two before starting the duphaston, to be sure I've had chance to ovulate, and now I have to make a decision by morning (clinic phoned to remind me that I start tomorrow).  So, more of the *what am I doing?* ahhhhh!!!!

Delay?

I'm really in a tizz at what to do....
My parents aren't going to be here for the entire month of March so we only have mil to turn to for baby sitting (toddler) and the school run (older girls).
We've got sooooo many things on in March, as well as doing the IVF, I don't know if we should delay?  If we do, hubby has holiday from work in April, but the delay would be 1 cycle (so 30/31 days at the mo) and his holiday week would need a delay of 40 days to get the timing right and IVF when he's off.
Not only that, but my parents rent their house out to a couple when they're away, so I'll be at their call if anything needs doing (chimney fire one of the last times they stayed).
If we delay until April, I may be doing cleaning and changeovers for my parents if they're back in the UK over summer, with my history of early loss it's not something I want to be doing in the first trimester.
Ahhhhh, what to do?  I guess people might say there's never a right time to have a baby, but when there's sooo much planning into making that baby it makes decisions difficult to make!
Plus I haven't been as healthy as I could, I've been sticking to my plan, buuuuut, at the weekends I do treat myself to a bottle of wine, or two!  Now lent is here I'm off alcohol, pop, caffine, bread and butter....that has to go in my favour, right?

Finally!

Thank goodness, af FINALLY arrived!
I started with a few scar twinges last night, not too painful - my scar pain can be pretty intense thanks to endometriosis, then noticed a little pink when in the shower last night, very happy to see full arrival this morning.
So today marks CD1 of post- IVF#6.  On day 22 (I think, need to check) I start wearing HRT patches, and as usual do my duphaston (progesterone) from day 16-25.  I'm not going to try and guess what day will be the next CD1 as after this past week I'm really not sure, lol!

Also had an MRI this morning on my left knee, so af arriving meant I could tick the *not preg* box instead of being unsure. 
I had a *horse accident* in September last year - one of my horses knocked me over, another jumped over me as I fell to the ground (missing me by a hair) and another one I think stood on my right leg). 
As our new dr hadn't arrived (old dr retired in May and replacement hadn't yet moved here) and I didn't have time to go to A&E, this is the first check I've had.  Wont get the results for a few days though (the nurse said trauma to the knee was clear lol).
These (photos) are 2 weeks after the accident, my right leg was very purple and still (yes still now 4.5m later, has a dent in it), but it was my left knee that took the force of landing on rocky ground.

Maybe?

Here's a thought....maybe somehow I've sealed shut, that's why af isn't here - cause it can't get out?!
Honestly, WHERE ARE YOU AF?
I've even checked if somehow I forgot I had my mooncup in, but nope.  Therefore I'm sticking to the sealed shut theory....
Still BFN this morning.  One test, I refuse to do any more today!

Losing the plot!

I think I may have gone barking made....not only have I just had to pots (piss on TWO sticks) this morning, but as they were negative and still no period, so I googled.....*drum roll*....and dipped a couple of tests in breast-milk too.  Bonkers!
There's a big difference in waiting for a pissy test vs waiting for a milky test, as the milk travels up the test it's sooooo dark, no lines, just a big smudge of dark pink/purple.
The result, both negative, what else was it going to be?!

WANTED!

Where is af (aunt flow/period)?!
My tests are now as white as a Daz advert and I stopped progesterone a few days ago now - my last tablet was Friday morning....af is usually here within 36/48 hours....it's now 72 hours!
I'm never late, never!
There's barely any spotting too, just the tiniest amount when wiping, and I mean TINY!  So little that if you weren't an obsessed tissue checker like I am, then you really wouldn't notice.
It's only when you're IVFing that you REALLY want af to be on time, any other time it'd be fine, in fact I'd be pleased.  But I really wanted to get all my tracking scans and egg collection done in the half term holiday, this plan is now looking unlikely, ahhhhh!
AF come out come out wherever you are, you are WANTED!